Bad at Everything
It has recently come to my attention that I'm not good at anything. No no; no one came out and told me as much, but after a brief self-evaluation, I've discovered that my past is filled with professional failures that have defined the person I am, and I'm not liking what I'm seeing. (I won't take the time to list them all here; I have neither the time nor the inclination to relive disappointment, and it's likely that it may bore you, anyway. Besides, there isn't the room).
I don't recall the last time someone said to me, "You know, you are truly talented," or "I love that you are so good at this," or even, "nice job," and I'm starting to believe the silence and blank stares that greet me when I attempt something I like.
OK, I admit it; I'm not very good with criticism -- constructive or not. I tend to take it personally, even though I'm aware that sometimes it isn't personal. Still, I don't take it well and I should learn to have a thicker skin. Someone once said that without criticsm one can never grow, and I suppose they have a point. I've never had a mentor to guide me which may have something to do with it, I don't know. But as I approach the summer of my life, it would seem that I would have found my niche by now. Unfortunately I haven't, and I don't know if I ever will.
I don't recall the last time someone said to me, "You know, you are truly talented," or "I love that you are so good at this," or even, "nice job," and I'm starting to believe the silence and blank stares that greet me when I attempt something I like.
OK, I admit it; I'm not very good with criticism -- constructive or not. I tend to take it personally, even though I'm aware that sometimes it isn't personal. Still, I don't take it well and I should learn to have a thicker skin. Someone once said that without criticsm one can never grow, and I suppose they have a point. I've never had a mentor to guide me which may have something to do with it, I don't know. But as I approach the summer of my life, it would seem that I would have found my niche by now. Unfortunately I haven't, and I don't know if I ever will.


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